Some Poem i found, i like it

if life is water
than maybe im a drop
that looks just exactly
like everone else

and if im drop
than how do i create
the waves that you've said
you wanted to me to make

im nothing without you
all of my life is
a convenient little second
that should show your truth

if life is dirt
than maybe im a pebble
laying on the ground
waiting to be found

and if im a pebble
than how do i make myself
the rock that
you've called me to be

if life is seeing
than maybe im blind
maybe being blind
is better i'll find

and if im blind
promise to lead me
and show me the way
that you place in my heart everyday

you make life amazing
steady and unchanging
just like the rock that
you've called me to be

even though im blind
even though i cant see
You're the only thing, that matters to me



ehh kidna cheesy, i guess, but i like it.
God calls us to all sorts of amazing things. and were not gonna meet all of em, unfortunately, were not perfect, were just not going to, yeah that kinda stinks. but heres the great thing, no matter what happens to us, he is with us always, even if we dont want him to be. So next time you are having a tuff day, or ur just freaking confused(like me) just remember whose sitting next to you going through it with you

guidance(little bit of a vent here)

sooooo, right now, like as in five minutes ago. some things just came up that made my life really confusing, like i thought i knew how things were going and then blehhh.... not so much. i guess thats what happens when one just tells himself what he likes to hear, to much of the salesman in me. and its not like this is the most important thing that god has everplaced in my path. but its still a big deal. so right now, im praying for guidance, and if neone else who reads this would too, thatd be awesome, thanks guys and gals
-Charle

Rain

So after hearing and watching the Nooma video tonight(which btw they are awesome, u should buy them all lol jk, but they really are good stuff) i've gathered my thoughts and as normal thought i'd spill em here.

Rain. and no i'm not talking about getting wet. I'm talking about the storms that come with em. what are your storms of life. what are the things in your life that make u just cry out with every ounce of your being for help? what just keeps on and keeps on wearing you down, till there's nothing but you? we've all had storms, it happens, if you are sitting there saying you have never had anything go wrong in your life, not to be offensive, you are oblivious. we live in turmoil, caused by a little thing called Sin. another blog for another time. but why? why does the loving caring giving merciful God, let his own creations get worn down to the very essence of who we are? because its who we are, who we really are, not the person we are at skool, not the one who slides on the happy face because its a formality. No, God's after the part of us that sits in us all day long, and we never let that person out. The part of us that God is after is our Identity not just who we are, but what we are. He wants the part of us that during the absolute worst part of our lives, during the greatest you've had to fair yet, will choose to hold on to Him and never let go, and let Him hold you back. (this is the part from the Nooma video) and when the loudest thunder cracks and the rain is blowing sideways and everything is crashing down, he whispers in your ear "I Love You buddy" "We're gonna make it!" "Dad knows the way" ahh gosh, its just all so true. he loves us so much he's NEVER gonna let go of us even if we try to push him away. We are going to make, just stick with him and dont give up, he's not gonna test you past what can handle, promise. and at the very end of the storm after all the trees are broken, after everything that you know is all jumbled up. you ask God why did you let me go through that, and he answers "I wouldn't give those moments up for the life of my Son". man idk, i know i'm rambling but its just so powerful, thanks Tom for showing taht and thanks all for listening kinda a long one tonight, sorry about taht.
Love much
-Charlie